Time is flying by way to fast for me this morning. I need to jump in the shower soon, but I would be completely content sitting here tapping on my laptop while watching Minow hunt birds. Her little tail is twitching!!!
I took a walk this morning and just finished 120 sit-ups. No more starch, sugar or carbs for me. I need to get my ass back in shape, its really pissing me off, this whole getting older, your body is not 16 anymore crap. I am 10 lbs heavier than I was last summer and that is just sickening!! It will be gone soon damn it!! *raises fist* As soon as Cassie relieves me from the store I'm going for a jog with Liberty. Where the hell is my sports bra!!!!????
I've been keeping track of what I eat on myfooddiary.com
Very interesting, this program they put together. It tells you how many vitamins you are getting, which ones you need more of, water, exercise, blah blah.it goes on and on, but the data base is HUGE....yesterday it told me I need more water, less Redbull :) and more protein. Ok...so comes another day.
I have been having terrible nightmares lately. I used to have them all the time years ago and now they are back. I'm not getting good sleep at all. Vin is right next to me but feels so far away in the middle of the night when these demons are creeping in. I used to meditate before going to sleep and that helped, thinking I should start doing that again.
Need to get up to Maine this weekend, my favorite woman on the planet is dying and asking for me.
Must see her soon.

My back has NEVER felt this bad. Two years ago I saw a back doctor and she told me that I have severe scoliosis and need therapy. I never went. So now its catching up on me, every time I move I and *hear* my bones cracking and shifting. My neck is gonzo. When I took warm baths after work that seemed to help. But I'm really picky about my bathtubs ;)

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SO. I am a new business owner. I KNOW that OTHER businesses DO NOT like it if you carry their *things* SO *I* took plenty of time introducing myself to ALL the little shops from here to Timbucktoo to make sure I would NOT be carrying the same things.
Well, lets just say that I revisited this *particular* shop some time ago, and noticed that they are now carrying MANY of my items!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wtf???????
I pride myself in being able to tell people that I am the only one that carries this *thingy* and and now I can never feel comfortable saying that. I'm starting to realize that everyone *IS* out for themselves and the big $$$$$, who cares about Fair Trade anymore?? As long as you carry the role caring, people will throw money at you . That makes me very sad.
And the PISSER is that they are selling these *items* for much less, so that means they got them for MUCH less, which means that because I am a young business owner, people are taking total advantage of me. Oh.........I could tell you stories.
*Buy for church?*
I'm so close to being a sucker.
But now I'm closer to just getting real pissed off.
Is everyone a sellout?????
Please tell me.